We the dissociated in recovery try to maintain our outward facade without the relief from the racing mind

The real need to maintain a meditation practice.We the dissociated in recovery try to maintain our outward facade without the relief from the racing mind - and the resulting overwhelming emotions - that drugs had once provided. Unless we do something to be rid of the discomfort and pain created by trying to present one coherent persona to the world while inside a hundred different 'selves' manifest themselves - the angry 'self', the shameful 'self', the remorseful 'self', the indignant 'self', the smug and superior 'self',etc. - there is a distinct probability we will return to the dissociated 'pain-killers' that seemed to have worked at one point to relieve such psychic pain.